Bailing vs Being Self Protective, a case study… | May We Dance Upon Their Graves

I'm fine. All is well. There's no drama, generally or abuse wise, in my life. Except, I feel edgy and menstrual, which in itself is probably the cause of the edgy. I have a performance this Friday. I'm not looking forward to it. I'd like to be better prepared, but feel like I'd be wimping out if I bailed. I really really want to bail. Firstly, my guitarist who would normally play for me can't